Live Where You Are

I came into Taylor hating it. Despising it with all I have. Not wanting to change my heart or my mind towards it. I could do better. This was not the place for me, but I had to go here. I'm not going to lie, this was mindset until about...this year. I cared for the people who cared for me, but as a whole, I hated Taylor. I did not like the institution, the people who worked here, the administration...everything about it...sucked, straight up. I left for a bit, went overseas and came back with a bit more appreciation for it, but still not in love. It was just the other day that it clicked...here I am, complaining, wallowing in all that I hate about this place and how there are so many rich kids here and how we spend so much money on so much stuff that we do not need and how I could be somewhere else. I could be somewhere else, saving the world, working with those who are less fortunate. This is where God hit me upside the head...there are people less fortunate here. There are people here who do not have what they need to survive. They do not have God, they are missing him. There are people who have problems like the rest of the world and just because they have money does not mean anything. There is so much more to life than that. I am here now and I need to be here. I do not need to be anywhere else. If I were somewhere else, then I would be there, but for the meantime, I am here. What does this mean in my life? It means that I need to suck up those times where I am upset that I am here. I need to be there for those who need people. God can use me here and he wants to use me here, I should not fight that just because I do not want to be here myself. I should want to be here so that I might serve him. This life is not about me, but it is about him and it's about time that I see that. I need to quit being so freaking selfish and wanting to be everywhere else but here.

On that same note, if I am going to be here for God then I need to live like it. No more lukewarm, but either hot or cold. If I am going to commit to being a Christ follower, then I am going to honestly commit to it.