hi im back.

Kelly, I decided to post one more just for you and because I was not really finished when I posted that last post...

So, I have had a lot to think about the last month. I have grown up in ways, seen things in different lights, made serious decisions, been pushed in different ways, and have had completely new understandings. This month has not been easy for me as I have seen myself have a need for change. In order for me to truly be who I say I am, then I must live in that way. Something that is easy for me to say, yet hard for me to do. I have understood what it means to take things to the extreme, to let them take my pain. I have learned what it means to let something take over my life to the point where I could not bare it anymore. What does this look like? Well, this is what it looks like...it looks like I have to change the way that I live. I have to live like I speak, get rid of those things that I let fill the voids where Christ should fill. I have to allow myself to be humbled down and really let myself go. I have to allow Christ to work in me. Why is this so hard? Here's why...because it challenges us. It means taking a step out of the comfortable zone, am I ready to do that? I say yes, but I do not know if I really mean it when I say it. I want to mean it when I say it and I want to change. I want to be challenged and I want to be pushed. I want to be out of my comfort zone. Bring it on.

What brought this about?

Turkey. More to be said later.