This one is for you, Sarah!

Sarah Keur was extremely amazed at my number of posts in one day the other day and now, I have let her down with my lack of posts since then. However, here I am again and ready to report on life. I have been keeping track of my life since then, just not on the internets. So, here it goes...

Life has been a bit hectic in the last week. I have felt extremely stressed and tired. I have been getting enough sleep, but I have not felt rested. It has been rough especially when I have to go in and hang out with kids all day. I still do like living here and I like the community that I am in. I like being with the people that I spend time with on a regular basis. I love working with the kids, but for real...I am so tired.

It is not just me though...other people are feeling the same way. Other people feel tired and like they are being attacked all of the time. It is like we, as a community, are being attacked hardcore. It all makes sense though, God is doing awesome things here and that is visible. We are not going to crumble, but it is kind of annoying sometimes.

I learn a lot of God's heart for people as I spend more time here, though. I sit back and I watch people go through their life situations. I see joy, sorrow, pain, and everything imaginable. And as I watch people go through life, as I go through life, I understand a little bit more of who God is. I watch him come to comfort those who truly need him. I watch him love those who are in need of love. And I see him completely overfill people with love and joy that flows onto others. I have learned a lot about being brokenhearted in the last few weeks though. I have experienced pain and even a broken heart in my life, but watching others hearts break...wow. And I feel my heart full of sorrow as I sit there and watch it. And I realize that there is nothing that I can do to mend it, but I need to pray. What a humbling thing to think, I can only pray. Ha, "only", as if it is something small. I do like to fix things, I do like to step up, but I have learned what it means to step down. I have learned what it means to let the ultimate Counselor take care of these problems and when he wants me to speak, I speak. I still need humbling after all these years. I still have so much refining to go. That, my friend, is a hard concept to grasp.