Life here lately has been pretty crazy and pretty hectic. I feel like there are days where my head is spinning and it just won't stop. I wouldn't trade my new life in for the world as I do really love it here, but for real, I need a break. If I keep running myself like this, I will burn out. And that is not something, that I, Annie Freaking Nelson, am okay with. It is not even one of those things where I need to be knocked down because I am taking on too much responsibility. It is quite the opposite actually. I am not taking on a lot, in fact, I am sitting in the background for once and allowing people to give me assignments. Not because I am not willing to do anything or to take things on, but because I am truly using this as a learning experience. And here I am, learning, and so often that learning consists of me being shoved down in the dirt. Let's be real, I am more than willing to get a little bit dirty, but eating it so often is not my favorite thing in the world.
I know that this is just another one of those attacks. Those attacks in which I am told that I am not good enough and that I will never make it. I know that I need to fight back if I want to survive. I get all of that, but I do like to vent every once in a while. It is nice and healthy, I suppose.
And as I sit here, wallowing in my "hard knock life" (yes, I did that on purpose), I can hear the resounding words in my head, "Though the battles may come, the war has already been won..." And a thank you Megan and Dad for teaching me a lesson without even trying or being here to do so. I need to remember those words as I start to get down and upset on what is going on around here. Things might be hard and not always ideal, but there is no reason to fret about any of that. I know that I have a God who is bigger than all of that and who has already won the battle for me.
We had our block party this past weekend. There was quite a turn out. I got a few bruises, before it began..way to go AFN! The community came together and it seemed like everyone had a blast. I am glad that I am a part of this community and that I get the pleasure to interact with the members of the community. I am still getting to know people and still am being acquainted, but it is good so far. I am excited to see how I get involved further down the road. Other than that, life has been pretty chill around here. I also got the chance to watch my 4th Jump Rope USA presentation on Saturday. That was a much needed outing and with such great friends!
Only a few more weeks of summer left and school will start up again...
I am ready, but not ready at the same time.
It will be a good change from Summer Literacy, though.
Only a few more weeks at KFIM and I will have to start looking for a job again...not pumped for that.
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