Sarah Does Not Break Hearts, She Mends Them

Shalom world.



Life has thrown me some curveballs this week. And I'm not going to lie, it's not easy and it's not something that I want to deal with. However, I know this...I know that I have a God who loves me. I know that I have a God who has put me where he has for a reason. I know that I am in the situations that I am, for a reason. I know all of these things, but sometimes knowing is not enough. Knowledge is only acknowledging a situation or whatever is going on. What really needs to happen, is a plan of action. Following through with what has been told to you. Allowing a plan that has been laid in front of you to happen. In order for this to happen, there must be acknowledgement, but also humility. This is where I am at, the humility stage. The stage where I must allow God to work through me. I must trust him...hello common theme in my life.

I went to a funeral this week. Mary Fran Euler. A much loved person in the Upland community. A woman who had a heart that belonged to God and was very visible with that in the way that she interacted with everyone. A woman who had wisdom that came directly from God as could be heard through her words. I'm not going to lie, she will definitely be missed in our community, but heaven just gained a great thing. However, this is not what I am going to write about, I could go on for hours about her life and who she is, but this is what I want to say...As I was sitting there, her sister in law said something to me that really stuck out, "God does not always call us to be the last link in the chain, He calls us to be A LINK in the chain." I heard this and then later that night, this became true in my own life. I went out to coffee with a friend, someone who is deeply hurting and longing for God, but does not want him. I sat there and listened and my heart pounded with pure pain for her. All I wanted more was for her to just accept God's love and to allow him to work. All I want to be is that last link, that link that brings her to God. I want to be the one to see her come to God and come to him fully. However, as I continued to think about this and to hurt, God spoke these words of Mary Fran to me. I am a part of her life and because of that I am a single link in the chain. I may not be the link that connects her with God for real, but he is using me as a part of that.

I often forget about this. I think that because I do not see someone growing in the Lord, then I am not doing anything. All that I have put into the person is a complete fail. I have not done enough. I continue to put myself down time and time again because of it. The truth is, that I am being worked through, but this work may never be seen by me. I may never see the fruit of God's labor through me. This sucks sometimes, but it is still so cool to know. It hurts sometimes, but I just gotta keep going. I just gotta trust.