Let me hear.

"And if you choose to accept it, he is the Elijah."
"Those who have ears, let them hear." Matthew 11:14-17

God is all around us. He is constantly pulling on our hearts and speaking to us. He says things to us that should be so meaningful and that should really make us turn around. He puts us in moments of awe and puts us in scenarios where we should be strucken so hard that we should all to the ground. So many times, I am put in the place where I know that it could be nothing other than God. There is nothing else that could ever make me feel this way or think this way. It's my conscience, my morals, the way that I live, but those things all come from God. I look at the things in my life and realize that so many times, I hear, but I do not hear. I say I want to change, but changing takes effort. It's something that I do not always want to do. If I change...it means so much more than simply following the law of God, but it means hearing God. When hearing God comes into the picture, it is a completely different scenario.

So many times, I have found myself emotionally dead to the emotions that God has filled me with. I choose not to be in awe, I choose not to accept what he has brought before me. I choose to drop it and to not really go forth with it. I choose to not push myself and listen to what he is honestly saying to me. It is so easy for us to do. It is so easy to not hear God. It is so easy to let it go and just live our lives. It is easy to not really hear.

However, here I am now. I know that I am surrounded by God. I can see it in the people that I come in contact with. I sat in my living room earlier and listened to a girl tell me about how God is working in her life. Yeah, we hear that all the time, but this is a girl that doesn't usually say things like this. She doesn't admit that God is working in her life. She doesn't admit that God is pulling on her heart. To do that means that she has to be humble. Humility is not in her vocabulary, but today it was. She sat here and told me how God has been working in her heart. How he has brought her to tears. How he has truly been breaking her down. A girl who I used to have to convince that there was even a God out there was now telling me how powerful God was. The tables have been turned, she is now teaching me the lessons.

I know that I serve a powerful God. I know that he speaks. I know that he is constantly with me, but I have become numb to being changed by God. I have come to a point where I am so apathetic about things. I have come to a point where I am so freaking selfish about things. This is not who I want to be anymore. I want to be the person who hears and does. I want to be the person who rises up and does what God has called me to do. I do not want to be emotionally dead, but I want to be filled with the love of God and have passion again.